The Pademic...and lockdown dairies

We started rigorously beating the plates with spoons and tumblers with sticks -- the sole motive was to do away with the pandemic. Corona situation worsened and years passed. The world became enclosed in your finger tips. Your friend and family was nothing but the smartphone became not only  your real life partner but your dictator, ruler, and of course the owner of your mind. 

The child who u prohibited from using the smart gadget has become solely dependent on the phone. So, is the human race becoming the slave of technology or are they slowly heading towards a psychic world where clubhouses, virtual chat rooms and whats app messages formed an integral part of life than those humanly interactions and coffee house gossips. 

No matter it is a necessity and we are left with no options. But isn't human race slowly creating a mechanical world in a life filled with machines and gadgets????

Emotions are no longer predominant. With thousand of corpses burning at the same furnace at the same time aren't the human race slowly forgetting to be humane or are they slowly moving towards a robotic environment with no humanly emotions....

Yet to actually get the results...Corona still persists and we are no longer the same as we were a decade before... how long????

I am under severe depression, I wish I could overcome the trauma I am undergoing. I wish I have the shoulder to cry who have promised me to be by the side for a lifetime. I am struggling to live till I hear again 

I am breaking every passing moment. Trying to console myself. Trying all these just because of us. Just because I want our promises to be with us... keep us  together above everything. I trust u more than my life

difficult decision

I know it is not only difficult but a tough decision to take whether i should continue to live or i should cease to live. Are relations important or my life. i ought to live and that too live with a dignity.

The DP....

Morning when I saw your whats app Profile... I was shocked to see that you have changed your DP. was it on public demand or???Another answer I struggle to find. 

Another Sleepless night

The desperation was unbearable.
Shall I???
Another sleepless night
I waited and waited
For the long awaited tryst
Only a single night
That I always said you owe
But somewhere emotions
Clashed...
Was it your reputation?
Was it your hatred?

Somewhere the wounded self respect said
Was it love?
Or all about using a dustbin ???
where u dump your frustrations
In the name of love?
Was it ????
Was it????

Perhaps it was all about my perfume
Another Mystery

Facebook.... late night searches and nostalgia of 17 years

Life has taken so many turns -- ups and downs and amazing moments. Suddenly the name took back to another era which I have left behind 17 years back.

A hazy picture... resolute, firm and with same attitude... seen long years back. I messaged I poked and looked again and again to see that is this the same one???

 And thus the journey began. Life would not have been so beautiful as it is today.   The day came we chatted, we talked and ....we were together in an eternal bonding.

I don’t know where and how the closeness started. The longingness grew... and so the desperateness..Calls after calls.....the desire to be together increased and so the feelings.

Life can never give such beautiful moments than the thoughts of being with someone who understands and cares. 48 hours passed...and so our desperateness. I waited and waited. Each moment was like a year for me. The eagerness grew and desire overpowered my emotions. 

So many questions knocked at the mind’s door... How did it happen? What do all these long calls signify and the unending waiting??? Where is it taking me? Perhaps another chapter,... another expectation and something of a never before experience... unknown, untouched but true.

It’s hard to believe. I desperately waited... for an unknown union... perhaps for another eternal tryst.