It is very easy to propagate or advocate. But are all things that are advocated real? I know you have a reason for everything—a reason to love, a reason to share your moments, a reason to give excuses and a reason to hate. But what’s beyond that?
It is very nice when you say, “I am tied up…” but there is always a way when there is a will. It is very easy to make an excuse and say live a life for others. But not everyone can be great. You quoted, Do you know ‘Grahambell, the scientist who invented the phone never called his family.’
Graham had good reasons in doing so. How will he call…. His wife and daughter were deaf. But not everyone can be as wise as Grahambell’s wife, and what if the person is someone more than the family?
It’s always true no one can be so dear to you until and unless you love. For any relation to exist, love is the binding factor—no matter lust also accompanies. It is unintelligible to me, what bind us? Is it love …. Is it lust…. or a “nihilism”.
Life is very short to fulfill all your obligations. But, what makes a life, if you cannot sacrifice a few seconds for someone who really needs you. I never said be with me forever… neither did I say come to my life and bless me with your caring. Never did I ask fill my life with laughter. It happened. Everything was predestined and all was as you desired.
I don’t know what relation exists? You make me miss you, you make me smile; you make me cry and above all you make me expect your presence. I lack understanding…. Do you feel the same the way I do?
It is easy to say…. but is it not so easy to care and love someone really. I don’t know. It pains when you are hurt.
I wonder, do I belong to someone. Does a relation really exist?
I try to understand…. and so I go on searching a meaning….
Friday, July 24, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Celebrating… with loneliness…
Everywhere you see there is nothing but ….vacuum… Long back the thought of “belongingness” have withered. You should know you are born to be alone, celebrate alone and die alone. Perhaps that is the ultimate truth of life, “You belong to everyone but you belong to no one.”
So, hail and celebrate… loneliness will never leave your company and you have your faithful mobile and the Internet to follow. What if they don’t have life or they cannot feel... They understand how needy you are. May be that is why the phone lets every known or unknown calls to reach you, blinks when you miss and informs about all those flirty messages that speaks a lot but never means. So does your computer; you can scold it, express your feelings and write whatever you like. It will never leave you unless you leave.
As always, by now you should understand you are not to expect because you are no way their own, ’cos if not of heart, you need to be of blood. Life has different priorities and so, is the scarcity of time. You are destined to be neglected, because life has lot to do other than continuing a relation of no reasons. Before landing up in the “illusion of love”, think again—do you mean anything to the one you love? Do you deserve to be loved and so on.
An impossible dream! How can you expect to celebrate with someone for whom you mean nothing? How can you say it is love that binds us, whereas there is nothing but lust alone…
Yeah, it is loneliness that will never deceive you. Even if you beg, it will not leave you. Learn to rejoice your loneliness. Live every moment, share and give it your best! You can be sure it will never leave your company—be it your birthday or your death.
Accept the reality—and be grateful that even if God has not given you anything he has given you one precious thing—loneliness.
So, hail and celebrate… loneliness will never leave your company and you have your faithful mobile and the Internet to follow. What if they don’t have life or they cannot feel... They understand how needy you are. May be that is why the phone lets every known or unknown calls to reach you, blinks when you miss and informs about all those flirty messages that speaks a lot but never means. So does your computer; you can scold it, express your feelings and write whatever you like. It will never leave you unless you leave.
As always, by now you should understand you are not to expect because you are no way their own, ’cos if not of heart, you need to be of blood. Life has different priorities and so, is the scarcity of time. You are destined to be neglected, because life has lot to do other than continuing a relation of no reasons. Before landing up in the “illusion of love”, think again—do you mean anything to the one you love? Do you deserve to be loved and so on.
An impossible dream! How can you expect to celebrate with someone for whom you mean nothing? How can you say it is love that binds us, whereas there is nothing but lust alone…
Yeah, it is loneliness that will never deceive you. Even if you beg, it will not leave you. Learn to rejoice your loneliness. Live every moment, share and give it your best! You can be sure it will never leave your company—be it your birthday or your death.
Accept the reality—and be grateful that even if God has not given you anything he has given you one precious thing—loneliness.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Am I to be pardoned
You don’t have craze for a particular thing … that is how you justify.
But you go on repeating the same activity… that is what he questioned.
Can we call it an accident? You are not supposed to call it an accident because accidents happen only when you face it suddenly. When the atmosphere is made relevant for an accident to occur, then it is no more an accident. It is a deliberate action—which your subconscious or conscious mind always has a desire to seek. May be that is why you repeat the same mistakes again and again.
Whether repeated mistakes are to be pardoned that is again a big question. I doubt, whether I would have tolerated or not for the wrong doings the other person! It would have been very difficult for me to tolerate if the situation had to be vice versa.
I have no reply. I could not justify myself… I go on asking, why I am so unsatisfied? What am I searching for? Why do I bring trouble to myself despite knowing that I should avoid them? A lot many things creep in to my mind. I know I don’t deserve to be pardoned. How can I be so selfish that I go on hurting the person I love so much.
It is utterly selfishness and now I feel sorry… I could not recognize the true love; I went on hurting again and again—may be because I knew I will be forgiven. I doubt myself, if he is the world for me then why have we gone away.
Which is more important—the social rules or our staying away?
When the realization came it is too late. I have no words to express my repentance. I know I am spending my days like a living dead. But still I hesitate to take a step ahead or say let’s reconcile. And start a new life.
I wonder do I deserve to be forgiven. Things are no more the same. How liberal one can be. Was not his sacrifice more than what a normal person can do? How can I repay his sacrifice…Am I to be pardoned?
But you go on repeating the same activity… that is what he questioned.
Can we call it an accident? You are not supposed to call it an accident because accidents happen only when you face it suddenly. When the atmosphere is made relevant for an accident to occur, then it is no more an accident. It is a deliberate action—which your subconscious or conscious mind always has a desire to seek. May be that is why you repeat the same mistakes again and again.
Whether repeated mistakes are to be pardoned that is again a big question. I doubt, whether I would have tolerated or not for the wrong doings the other person! It would have been very difficult for me to tolerate if the situation had to be vice versa.
I have no reply. I could not justify myself… I go on asking, why I am so unsatisfied? What am I searching for? Why do I bring trouble to myself despite knowing that I should avoid them? A lot many things creep in to my mind. I know I don’t deserve to be pardoned. How can I be so selfish that I go on hurting the person I love so much.
It is utterly selfishness and now I feel sorry… I could not recognize the true love; I went on hurting again and again—may be because I knew I will be forgiven. I doubt myself, if he is the world for me then why have we gone away.
Which is more important—the social rules or our staying away?
When the realization came it is too late. I have no words to express my repentance. I know I am spending my days like a living dead. But still I hesitate to take a step ahead or say let’s reconcile. And start a new life.
I wonder do I deserve to be forgiven. Things are no more the same. How liberal one can be. Was not his sacrifice more than what a normal person can do? How can I repay his sacrifice…Am I to be pardoned?
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