Facebook.... late night searches and nostalgia of 17 years

Life has taken so many turns -- ups and downs and amazing moments. Suddenly the name took back to another era which I have left behind 17 years back.

A hazy picture... resolute, firm and with same attitude... seen long years back. I messaged I poked and looked again and again to see that is this the same one???

 And thus the journey began. Life would not have been so beautiful as it is today.   The day came we chatted, we talked and ....we were together in an eternal bonding.

I don’t know where and how the closeness started. The longingness grew... and so the desperateness..Calls after calls.....the desire to be together increased and so the feelings.

Life can never give such beautiful moments than the thoughts of being with someone who understands and cares. 48 hours passed...and so our desperateness. I waited and waited. Each moment was like a year for me. The eagerness grew and desire overpowered my emotions. 

So many questions knocked at the mind’s door... How did it happen? What do all these long calls signify and the unending waiting??? Where is it taking me? Perhaps another chapter,... another expectation and something of a never before experience... unknown, untouched but true.

It’s hard to believe. I desperately waited... for an unknown union... perhaps for another eternal tryst.

Flying to unknown but your nearness remained a longingness...

Uncertain...its a long way but travelling meant so many things to me. I couldnot resist from being with you and breaking free to unknown.

The longingness to be together became the concern and we waited long long time to see the unseen in the wavy waterflow. The numbness prolonged and before realising love I felt your indifference. Time passed with so much of uncertainty. People passed and so are the boats sailed and...... we waited and waited.

I wonder was there a reason to be there sitting in the schrocing sun tolerating all sorts of indifference. An hour was with us but I wonder was the hour mine? Despite the nearness I was far. May be the assumptions are different but the feelings!

It was hard to understand, unless you specified that nearness to you is something which is abstract. It is just sitting near so that you can be busy with your cell chattering aimlessly.
Time passed to eternity and you didn't even cared to ask.....what that all meant to be with you?

I doubt was it amazing to be with u???? Was it fulfilling????? or Was it another reason to be unhappy????